July 25, 2010
Today I decided I would start blogging. I am not really sure how interesting this will be, but I decided I would try it out. This might be a neat way to do daily journaling, getting stress out and just letting go of the past. Who knows where it will lead.
Everyone has an interesting life journey and we can all learn from each other.
This has been a rough month for me. I am blessed in many ways and should not be feeling sorry for myself at all. I have a roof over my head and a place to sleep at night. Financially, this has been a bad month. I do not ever intend to be in this boat again. I will not let anyone influence me into doing this that I just can't do. I have to learn to say no at times and not feel bad about it. I try to be and do everything for everyone reagardless of what the effects it has on me. Today is a new day and I will learn and move forward.
I am very thankful for my family. I am blessed with 2 sisters and 2 brothers that I love dearly. I have 2 nieces and 4 nephews that are all precious to me. And not to mention the beautiful children my oldest niece and nephew have. I have not been the best at keeping in touch, but that is changing too. Halia, Zach and Evan are the most precious and beautiful children. I love them so much and miss them. Halia will be turning 4 in a couple of weeks and it is so hard to believe, where has the time gone?! I can't wait to go to her princess party. She is truly a little princess, inside and out. Zach and Evan are blessings to our family that just can't be described. They were diagnosed with infantile spasms at 10 months old and it has been a whirlwind since the diagnosis. I do not know how Susie has done what she has, but she is the most incredible mom. I know without a doubt that mom has been holding her from heaven. They are both the strongest women I have ever known. There are no words to describe how much I love and admire my little sister. She is phenomenial.
I am very thankful for Shannon and pray for him daily. He is a wonderful son and I do not know what I would do without him. He has been strength for me when I have been at the lowest points in my life and I thank God for him.
Today has been a slower day, which I needed. I slept in a bit, took a loooong bath, which was very relaxing. I just needed to stay home and get things done here for me today. Washed clothes, cleaned apartment. I needed some order in the house, it was beginning to get to me. I don't do very well with a mess. It is raining now and things are cleaned so it has been a pretty good day.
I have met a very nice man and we enjoy being around each other. Friday night he cooked dinner for me and it was really nice. We watched Avatar too. I had not seen this movie and it was really good. Saturday I went over to his apartment and we went swimming and ordered pizza, we had a nice little storm and didn't want to get out in it. We also watched Twilight and New Moon. I am enjoying watching movies, haven't done that in a long time. It was a nice feeling that someone just wanted to snuggle with me. I really enjoyed that.
Will write more later :-)
